Joy comes in the Morning

Self-help manuals might get you through a bad mood or a rough patch. But what about an abusive childhood, or a debilitating accident, or years of chronic pain or public ridicule? Does God have a word for the dark nights of the soul?

Self-help manuals might get you through a bad mood or a rough patch. But what about an abusive childhood, or a debilitating accident, or years of chronic pain or public ridicule?

Does God have a word for the dark nights of the soul?

He does. The promise begins with this phrase: “Weeping may last through the night.” Of course, you knew that much. But you need to also know this: “joy comes with the morning” (Psalm 30:5 NLT).

Do you ever wonder if a morning will bring this night to an end? Mary Magdalene certainly did. She had been consumed with troubles. But then Jesus stepped into her world and restored life to her life. Wherever Jesus went, Mary Magdalene followed. She heard Him teach. She saw Him perform miracles. She helped to pay expenses. She was always near Christ.

On that Friday, Mary watched Jesus die. On Saturday, she observed a sad Sabbath. When Sunday came, she went to the tomb to finish the work she had begun on Friday. She knew nothing of the empty tomb. She came with no other motive than to wash the remaining clots of blood from His beard and say goodbye. It was a dark morning.

But when she arrived at the tomb, she “saw that the stone had been rolled away” (John 20:1 NKJV). Assuming the grave robbers had taken the body, she hurried to find Peter and John. They took a look and hurried to tell the others. “But Mary stood outside by the tomb weeping” (verse 11 NKJV). Could her world get any darker or more hopeless?

It was then that two angels met her, but Mary mistook them for men. It was still dark outside… and even darker in the tomb. Her eyes were tear-filled. She had no reason to think angels would be in the tomb. But in the midst of Mary’s darkest moment, the Son came out.

Jesus showed up. She didn’t recognize her Lord. So Jesus called her by name. Maybe it was the way He said it. The inflection. The tone. The Galilean accent. Maybe it was the memory associated with it. The moment she first heard someone say her name unladen with perversion or an agenda.

“Mary.” Her world went from a dead Jesus to a living one. Weeping may last through the night, but joy…

I wish I could paint this scene. The white-robed Messiah. The joy-filled Mary. Her hands extended to Him. His eyes upon her. The reflection of the sunrise in the tears of Mary. And a broad smile on the face of Jesus.

Joy comes because Jesus comes. And if you don’t recognize His face, He will call your name. Your name is not buried in some heavenly file. God needs no name tag to jog His memory about you. He has said, “See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands” (Isaiah 49:16).

You are everything to God.

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Helplessly Tamed

Tribute to all women across ages who have faced any kind of harassment.

Disclaimer : This is the poet’s tribute to all women across ages who have faced any kind of harassment. This is written in imaginary nature and is nothing personal. Cheers.

There is an innocence
There is a sparkle
In a young girl
Unfathomable like no other

Haven’t each of us been always warned
About the dangers involving strangers
And yet in the rebellion
How does a stranger feel home?

They could blame her attire
Or her folks for her upbringing
Yet they could never man up enough
To finally identify the victim

The bubbly laugh was
Her father’s pride
And the contagious smile
Her mother’s honour

Life changes
Within moments
And maybe, she’d too
Never see the sun of the day

Was her uniqueness
The cause of her downfall?
Or was it
The prevailing inhumane artifacts?

World could name a thousand reasons
And yet never return her smile
You could fight for her
And yet she’d never look at you with the same eyes

Darkness now, scares her
And so does a mere human contact
Every handshake a throttle to the neck
And every hug a silent death

The hands that grabbed her
Left stinging marks
A mere look now
Would leave her skin burning

Who would understand?
Who would actually feel?
Was it really a reality?
Or just a passing nightmare?

Emotions that betrayed her
Were foes more than folks
Wearing heart on sleeves she learnt
Was really not a smart move

Would times ever change
For flaws to be beautiful
Or would beauty always be defined
In the absolute haux perfectness

Yet dear sweetheart,
Out of all you went through
I want you to know today

In moments deep
When life’s a sinking sand
Let me hold your hand
To raise you to the cornerstone

Don’t lose hope, beloved
Heaven still loves you
Like a phoenix you’d too
Rise from the ashes

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A Happy New Year

I thought to write down the verses that the Spirit poured in me, for the most common thoughts we struggle with, so you can truly have a Happy New Year!

Beloved friend,

I thought to write down the verses that the Spirit poured in me, for the most common thoughts we struggle with, so you can truly have a Happy New Year! These verses are inspired from the Holy Bible and I am sure they will encourage you.

When you think of..

a. Money
Finances keep us worried!
The verse below is a simple rule that can prevent you from debts and help you meet your finances with honesty!

Remember, Proverbs 13:11 – Dishonest money dwindles away, but whoever gathers money little by little makes it grow.

b. Parenting
Troubled with how to get your child on track?
It’s never too late, start right away. The way they should go is Christ. Keep them Christ oriented and you will see a drastic difference in their behavior.

Remember, Proverbs 22:6 – Start children off on the way they should go, and even when they are old they will not turn from it.

c. Family
Conflicts in your family?
Love cures. God is love. I pray that you are strengthened in Christ and covered in His Love to solve family issues by avoiding arguments that are harmful and decisions that lead to permanent damage.

Remember, Ephesians 3:16-19 – I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

d. Workplace
No promotion?
Not able to enjoy the task at hand? Not happy with your colleagues behaviour? Many more.
Remind yourself that God gives His children the best and He has thought about the future even if you don’t see it.
He knows what is right for you in the long run. Trust His timing and strategy.

Remember, Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

e. Future
What next? Which career route do I take?
There is a lot you can do when God gives you His peace. You start to understand better, things start to get clearer and you will be able to make your heart oriented to a particular decision rather than wavering.

Remember, Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus

f. Sickness
The devil has his way to bind us in sickness so we don’t grow closer to God Father just think about ourselves.
So pray first.
Realise that He is the Great Healer (the best Physician). Before you run to take an appointment pray to the Maker of every cell of your body.

Remember, James 5:14-15 – Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be forgiven.

g. Food
The basic needs will be provided to those who seek God.That is His promise!
There are so many out there who seek men and we see that they may or may not get what they ask for. That’s why His Word says to seek Him because He is the Provider. He is a sure Giver.

Remember, Matthew 6:31-32 – So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.


*Be Grateful
Psalm 103:2-5 – Praise the LORD, my soul, and forget not all his benefits— who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

Count His blessings and name them one by one! Be amazed with what the Lord has done!

*Pray and Believe
Mark 11:24 – Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

He likes to talk to you. That’s true from the day He created you.
He is not looking for materialistic prayers He is looking for genuine conversation. He is the best Lover, the best late night shoulder and the best companion when you have the roughest day.
Oh! His touch soothes all the broken hearted.
Be with Him and He will dine with you.

Have a blessed 2019.

In His Service,
Feba Percy Paul

Where is your home?

The truth is we won’t find a place that’s 100% secure, which justifies that this world is not where we are meant to be. There is no ideal home here.

Lot’s wife must have had great dreams about her house. She must have been an important lady! She couldn’t resist herself from looking back at her house burn away.

Marriage has taught me some principles of living in Christ especially when we understand with time that, home is where the heart is. And a heart is usually given to a person, so does it mean that home is actually in reference to a person and not a place?

I started to think on this question, Bahrain is a beautiful place, it rains and people just can’t stop clicking pictures at the same time, this place is not rain proof. Delhi is so much fun but the air chokes, Mumbai with it’s delicious roadside treats cannot be forgotten but the slums next to the international airport still exists.

There are places where a man just pulls out a gun in a peaceful neighborhood killing many but it was a peaceful place for people to live. There is no place that is an ideal home. All the places I mentioned above can be thought as the best place to live but there is no home where the heart can feel safe (here on earth). The truth is we won’t find a place that’s hundred percent secure, which justifies that this world is not where we are meant to be.

God the Father wanted to let us know of how a home can feel like when He took the form of man and lived among us.

To begin with: No sickness! He healed the blind, the lame and He brought every cell back even to the bed ridden. No shame! No guilt! No condemning! No killing, no murder and of course, no death!

Lazarus is a great example but Christ in His resurrection won over it the best way. To sum it up: ‘No trouble from the devil!’ A home that belonged to you and Him.

He is holy but He came down to us so we know that He wants us back. He wants our heart to come back to where its safe. Our heart is the safest and happiest where Christ is. Matthew 1:23 says “The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel (which means God with us).”

So the truth is, He is the Home we are talking about!

What we often believe is that, home is where heaven is, so we have mixed interpretations. I remember an instance when my friend sniffs the smell of alcohol that comes of a roadside shop and says, “This is heaven”. So home isn’t where heaven is.

Home is where Christ is.

Nowadays, there are way too many homes without hearts and many hearts without a home. The best part is you don’t have to search the way to this Home, it is not expensive to build and no taking loans. Christ says, “Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.” It’s this peaceful co-existence that is not made by bricks or mortar but with abundance of Love. It is not materials that you can touch rather it’s the joy that you feel.

Ahh! He is close! The year is about to end so don’t turn back. Lot’s wife was given a chance to change the home that didn’t have Christ. Are you still stuck with the old house of yours? Does it have people that are letting you down?

If you are reading this, this is your chance to move on to the Home in Christ.

I will end with an equation to make it simple:
Home should be where your heart is + your heart should be always in Christ = Christ becomes your Home.

Genesis 19
Revelation 3:20

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Lord, I don’t want to let You Down!

I have tried many things while wanting to earn, “Good and Obeying Christian” badge. The truth is when I strive more to earn this I was pushed to feel harder to love or even to like myself. Amidst all these things I was trying to achieve in pursuit of making Him happy, I completely forgot about what He had already told me.

What? Seriously! Like you really feel, you can ever let Him down? Okay, so do you also feel that He has set some limits which you should and have to come across to make Him PROUD over you?

Do you also feel in every appreciation you have to say it out Loud, “Glory be to God”? Or you would join me in feeling, you can never put out your opinion in a conversation and need to be submissive all the time (This is way different than being rude and putting your views across). Well, I have tried such and many more other things while wanting to earn, “Good and Obeying Christian” badge. The truth is when I strive more to earn this I was pushed to feel harder to love or even to like myself.

No offense! I have been there and I want to share this is the best trick to know that we all are in a constant desire of living a life that would shine for Jesus alone. The only thing, my ways were not right and needed some direction.

Amidst all the things I was trying to achieve or make happen in pursuit of making Him happy, I completely forgot about what He had already told me. In psalms 139: 15, It is clearly mentioned that Daddy knows us well “You saw my bones being formed as I took shape in my mother’s body. When I was put together there, you saw my body as it was formed. All the days planned for me were written in your book before I was one day old.” Isn’t it amazing that our Lord already knows our deeper thoughts and we need not to show or impress Him with our mere actions. Being a loving Father, HE deeply desires our love- a relationship, which We (Lord and Us) would cherish always!

I slowly started understanding my genuine love for Daddy, which could never be seen by anyone but could only be felt by the Lord. Such relationships are enough to help us know that He is always smiling over us and are proud to be our daddy, ALWAYS 🙂

I pray, if any of you are hurting, offended and are fed up with the continuous striving, may you find the real rest and assurance in Him alone that no act from this whole wide world could make OUR DADDY love me and You more.

Also nothing You and I could do or have done that could make Him surprised or sad over US.

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Doubting future being in your Promised Land?

Israelites doubted their future, rather doubted their Lord, who bought them out of Egypt’s slavery. This time they nurtured their doubt right in the Promised Land. The same land that was promised by the Lord.

Israelites – God’s chosen generation. No doubt, God’s hand was upon the Israelites. He cared for them. Do you also think he cares less for you and me? Is Lord not willing to stretch out His caring hand upon us? The very normal struggle we all face at some point in our lives.

Now Israelites have been praying to God for their deliverance, the very expression of Israelites’ faith in the Lord. Isn’t it good when we all pray and expect with hope from the Lord?

Compassionate Lord heard their cry and result was Moses being appointed as their leader – escorting them to their Promised Land. All the incidents during this exodus made history – parting of the Red Sea, water from the rock and the pillars of fire and cloud.

Does this make you feel God loved them more? Because things are happening in somebody’s life and not in yours, God plays favoritism? Because this has been my struggle too, I want you to refer, Romans 2:11, which says, “For God does not show favoritism” (NLT).

This verse brought me peace and satisfaction, along with surety that the Lord’s grace is for everybody who hopes and trusts in Him. And he does not care less for me than for anyone else.

Witnessing all the miracles done by Lord, Israelites reached their Promised Land – Canaan, I mean those who were faithfully holding on. For you and I, the toughest generation to deal with, it is inscribed in Psalms 138:8, “the Lord will fulfill His purpose for me.”

Israelites yet doubted their future, rather doubted their Lord, who bought them out of Egypt’s slavery. This time they nurtured their doubt right in the Promised Land. Land: that was promised by the Lord. Place where the promise was fulfilled.

Believing Psalms 138:8 is actually not going to be constant and we do hit rough roads. Thankfully we are not alone and “The Lord is our helper; we will not be afraid.” says Hebrews 13:6. What’s that one thing making your focus blurred? Truly convicted by the Spirit, I could hear that whisper, “Sitting in your promised land and doubting your future with me?”

Faith and doubt cannot co-exist but as my friend told Faith with questions can surely be companions. Down in the journey questions will leave and Spirit would lead where trust is beyond waters!

What is in your hand?

“I’m not equipped for this.” Well, it might be true that we do not have the right resources to perform something at a particular point of time. And in that way it’s totally fine to own it up. But let’s look at how things can be different.

“I’m not equipped for this.” I am sure you have heard this statement before, as an excuse used to evade from taking responsibility. I have heard many around me say this; me myself use this as an excuse many a times. Well, it might be true that we do not have the right resources to perform something at a particular point of time. And in that way it’s totally fine to own it up. But let’s look at how things can be different.

Exodus 4:2 – The Lord said to him, “What is that in your hand?” He said, “A staff.”

A man from the Bible also tried his very best to avoid being given the charge of a few duties; Moses. He was just a shepherd when God appointed to him the task of delivering Israelites from their bondage in Egypt. And before we move forward, remember, Moses was a Prince before all this; learned, trained in all skills and knowledge for 40 years in Egypt, which might just be equal to the world’s best institute of that period. Yet, it did not equip him to save the Jews while he was still a prince. And now here he was, drained out of all that he had and all that he was, just tendering a flock of sheep. The task which a powerful, strong and young aristocrat was unable to do is given to him when he is just a weak, stammering shepherd.

Moses was reluctant to take the responsibility with an absolutely sane reason. He basically said, ‘I don’t have the right equipment or the capability to perform your assigned task. I just have a staff with me and nothing else. How can I lead more than 40 lakh people? What use am I of to you.’

But the scenario changes when Moses submits entirely before God. Moses is re-equipped. The insignificant staff used to lead the sheep turns into the rod of authority and power. His entire dependence on God and complete submission unleashes a lot of hidden resources within him. Miracles were performed with the small resource in Moses’s hand; miracles that made the Pharaoh tremble before Moses, miracles that made Israelites believe in him. God used the very little that Moses had and changed it into something unbelievable.

There are times when we speculate upon something and come to the conclusion that we are not experts in it. This makes us say that most common excuse of ‘I am not good enough.’ We question ourselves. When there are other people much better in this field, why would someone with no firsthand experience be accepted and recognised? If I fail in completing that task, would I be seen as a fool? These are the ambivalences that trouble us.

Often, many of us don’t recognise and believe in the talents, gifts and resources that we have. Some even feel that they do not have anything worthy in their hands. If you are unable to get started with a work you have been considered for, just free yourself from all those juxtaposing thoughts. Release yourself from that bondage holding you back. Keep your fear’s, doubts, anxieties aside. Give yourself entirely to God. Yes, the situation might seem bleak, the coast might be a little misty and unclear. You might think you don’t have what it requires to get in that space. People around you might even call your crazy and insane.

It is at this moment that we have to learn from that widow who went to Elisha with a mere jar of oil and an enormous debt before her; and that little boy who willingly placed those 5 loaves of bread and two fishes in Jesus’s hand to feed thousands. What they had in their hand was very little. But when they released everything before God, incogitable things happened.

Maybe you don’t see the right tool or resource in your hand. Do not be disheartened. Let yourself and all you have to God. He will work wonders through them and things will start to fall in their rightful place. So, are you ready to see extraordinaire happen with your hands?

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I came across some posts mocking Pastors and prophets. Unsurprisingly, it pained me to the core and hurt me deeply. Those posts were also an eye opener.

Sitting on the sofa immersed in another one of Daddy daughter talks, I was amazed by the facts flowing freely from him even after being a Pastor. Concluding the conversation with a sense of pride on being my Daddy’s girl I started scrolling my Facebook feed. I came across some posts mocking Pastors and prophets blaming them for taking tithe. Somebody had also put in efforts to write few lines on why pastors are not what they are supposed to be. Few lines of biblical definitions of prosperity and consecutively naming pastors as money mongers. Oh! The irony. Considering what we were just talking about. Unsurprisingly, it pained me to the core and hurt me deeply. Those posts were also an eye opener. Prettily judging the whole community of Pastors because of the experiences with a few.

Without further adieu, let me tell you a story.

Once upon a time, long ago in the journey of Israelites under the leadership of the young and suave gentleman named Joshua, there came a time when the priests were to cross the mighty river named Jordan. A river with a wave so strong and the rippling current. The Lord that led them through the Red Sea also ordained this walk.

The most prominent thing was the way every miracle happened amongst them. There was a law to be followed for a blessing to be received. There was a sanctification for a journey. Everything had its own regulations.

Consecutively, Joshua ordered a sanctification over the people irrespective of their age and gender ; thus marking the beginning of a historical journey. In compliance to the voice of Lord to Joshua, the priests were ordered to cross the river Jordan. Behind the priests carrying the ark of covenant were people following according to the tribe. Completely uniform in nature.

As soon as the priests stepped their foot on the brink of the river, the Lord, the Lord of heavens and the earth made the river stand in a heap. Soon following behind the priests were the people categorized according to their tribes. The hours passed and the priests reached the middle of the river and stood still to the side paving way for the crowd to move. Seconds turned to minutes, minutes turned to hours and hours to the time of the day. The people of the twelve tribes crossed the river and reached the dry land, all along when the priests carrying the ark were standing firm to the land. It was now the time of dark, the night. People had put up their tents in the dry land. Some had already retired for the night. Even amongst them there were some tents with their lamps still burning. The lamps burning outside of the tents of the family of priests. Children awaiting their Daddy’s return, wives looking longingly at the door of the tent with ears sharpened to hear at least the footsteps of their beloveds. The family kept the lamp burning. And the lamp of prayer and hope shined in the blanket of darkness that covered the clouds.

My dear friend, you see, right from sanctification, leading the way to standing on the side paving the way to the congregation and the lamp burning in the household shows the power of prayer and the whole journey of a priest. Keeping the congregation above his own family often times, the man stands faithful in his ministry.

The pastor you just trolled, the pastor you just dedicated a meme to, the pastor whose sermon you mocked after a Sunday service, the Pastor you Love, the Pastor who irritates you to no end, the Pastor you just spoke against to, the Pastor you adore : He DESERVES your respect.

Romans 13:1 says, “Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers. For there is no power but of God: the powers that be are ordained of God.”

1 Corinthians 12:28-31 says, “And God hath set some in the church, first apostles, secondarily prophets, thirdly teachers, after that miracles, then gifts of healings, helps, governments, diversities of tongues. Are all apostles? are all prophets? are all teachers? are all workers of miracles? Have all the gifts of healing? do all speak with tongues? do all interpret? But covet earnestly the best gifts: and yet shew I unto you a more excellent way.”

1 Timothy 1:12 says, ‘….he counted me faithful.’

Dear church, just like every single human being is different, every other minister of God is different. If one a prophet, the other an apostle. If one a healer, the other a prayer warrior. Whithersoever, each one perseveres in being the best at who they are.

As humans, often times there will be conflict of thoughts and emotions but Mathew says, Do not be judged so that you don’t get judged. Someone bound by just a single pump of the heart, we are all but just a mere breath.
Theology and humanly logic will tell you, the Levi priests are not the present day pastors. Let me remind you sweetheart, putting it in simpler words, if you see someone who stood with the Bible, don’t even dare to go and dance on their head top. Bible or any other law doesn’t give you that right or authority. Come on, the bear was quick to eat up the kids who called Elisha, a baldie. Got the intensity of raising your voice against Pastors? Good hun! Don’t repeat the stupidity.

Someone once said, If you don’t see the book you want to read on the shelf, write it. In the same manner, if you aren’t pleased with your ministers in charge, take the reins. Get up, girdle up and prepare yourself. If God could able a Joshua after Moses, an Elisha after an Elijah, a Nehemiah after Ezra ; God can surely raise you too.

Have faith! Give respect! Run your race.
This is a PK’s Cry!

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How powerful is your Touch?

Colossians 3:5-11
Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. On account of these the wrath of God is coming. In these you too once walked, when you were living in them. But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth. Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. Here there is not Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised.

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Today our generation is heading to a immoral lifestyle which is subject to convenience and lustful circumstances. Men and women indulge in immoral sexual and inappropriate activities. Uncontrolled emotional spasms leading to mass destruction of sanity and sanctity. Not just of the body but of spirit and mind.

Being a Christian are we on the right track? You may call me ‘gaavaala’ or even cheaper terms but truth is truth! As a born again and baptized christian, have we left our earthly self even after repentance? Be honest to yourself. This post might just be for one person out there reading it. Are you really washed by the blood of the Lamb?

1 Thessalonians 4:3For this is the will of God, your sanctification

Advancement is good. Technology is also good. The new era has come and we need to change accordingly. All of this is fine. But The Word of the Lord never changes no matter if it is 3018. So then is it right to skip few verses from the Bible and just focus on Psalms our whole life and do whatever we please?

Many would disagree saying that Jesus forgave everybody – we are no more sinners but children of God. All this is so true but if you were an orphan, nobody would have really cared as to what you are doing. But once you are adopted to the divine family, even on earth you will be subjected to live morally upright because our Father holds a good reputation he earned in his whole lifetime. So then how much more THE FATHER IN HEAVEN SHOULD EXPECT FROM YOU?

Every one has their own devils to tame like in the quoted part of the bible few are mentioned above. Why am I talking about these things? Well this is specifically for them who think they have a honest connection with God.

No offense but if the Father of Heaven and Earth has given us the power to heal, cast out demons, raise the dead and so on. Let me ask you a couple of questions.

Are you my dear friend practicing any?
Are we not called to preach and make disciples?
Are you able to make a difference that God wants you to?
Are you being real with God?
Is this the life you wished to live after knowing the truth? Life of hypocrisy?
Are you living for people who will cheat you someday? Or live with God who in spite of being cheated will live with you every single day for the rest of your lives?

Dear friend, don’t give away your power of touch which can change circumstances and situations. Your touch can do miracles. Sanctify yourself and repent for our father is amazing and great. Pray for gifts from above. Find your real purpose. You may be working for a company on earth but know your purpose is to serve the creator and owner of heaven and earth.

Hebrews  3:15 it says TODAY if you hear my word.

Today is the day, my friend. Don’t procrastinate GOD. Let God Give you all wisdom and grace to cope up with your struggles and stand up for God. Do share your thoughts and struggles. I’ll definitely pray for you.


I am no exception everyone has their own weakness but know, “Harder the struggles Glorious the triumph.”

Dr. Mahima John Arul
Inspired by Pastor Arul Thomas

Carving My Renewal

Brought up in a family of prayer warriors and being a first hand witness to many miracles. Unsurprisingly, I was never once warned nor told a prophecy regarding my mental turmoil in the years to come.

Brought up in a family of prayer warriors and being a first hand witness to many miracles during my days of upbringing, having seen a perfect example on how to minister to the men of God by my mother and been inspired on how to give to the Lord by my Father, I was pretty much raised to be a proper Pentecostal Christian. Hosting so many men of God, I was also familiar to prophets and prophecies. Unsurprisingly, I was never once warned nor told a prophecy regarding my mental turmoil in the years to come.

It was a moonless, eerily silent night exactly two years from now. The month of July. I had hit an all time low and was facing something I hadn’t even seen in my wildest nightmares. The report that flashed on the screen in the morning had changed everything for me, and none for the better. Failure had come knocking on my door throwing me into an endless pit of despair and sorrow.

Tossing and turning on the bed, restlessness overtook my being. Hopelessness and helplessness clouded my head blocking all my senses. No one could reach to me. Words and actions seemed futile and labor gone in vam. Unable to sleep, I got up in the middle of the night. The sound of crickets and the darkness of the moonless night welcomed my eyes. Suddenly, I had a solution. A complete solution for my parents disappointment. A solution for me to run away from being an outcast. Without procrastinating much, I simply took a knife and started carving it deep into my skin. And to this day, those are my battle scars, still fresh wounds. I couldn’t cry, my eyes had gone dry. No more tears. The pain inside was so overbearing, it managed to surpass the pain I was trying to inflict on myself. That night was the beginning of few more nights of self-harm and another final futile attempt of suicide.

I meditated with all my heart, I prayed with tears, I attended camps and fellowships religiously and I was every Pastor’s favorite kid. Inspite of all these feathers in my cap, I still to this day wonder – “How could it happen to me?” My understanding of the scriptures was so low, God’s will didn’t even cross my mind for once. For me, victory was from Heaven, failure was from Satan. In short, I was living the life of a Pharisee at a time where I should have lived a life loving Christ.

My eyes still fill with tears as I pen down the most horrendous time of my twenty years for someone out there to drop that knife. These days even if no words reach you and none can comfort you, trust me when I ask you to give Jesus a chance. On the nights I would sit with my chin tucked on my knees, when my sobs had no voice, I felt someone lightly pushing my head to a shoulder and strong arms engulfing me. He wept with me. He wept my loss. He let me cry my guts out but he was the one to wipe those tears. He rubbed my back and whispered sweet nothings. I haven’t found a single human able to comfort me like Jesus did to me that night. You know what the difference was, with wiping my tears he also raised me up. He held my hand and hasn’t left me yet.

When you think it’s finished, he’ll begin turning your water into wine. When you think it’s over, your vessels will get filled with oil. When you think you’re alone, he’ll be your pillar of cloud through out. When you think this is the end, he’ll raise you even if it’s the fourth day.
Breaking all the histories, rules and traditions, he’ll be your Daddy.

Give him a chance sweetheart, let him rule your heart. He won’t fail you but embrace.

And this is how, I CARVED MY RENEWAL.